There’s an awkward moment in having certain songs stuck in your head. This morning that awkward moment song is one I heard at a bar two nights ago, The Thong Song.
Doesn’t that just take you back to 2000? Warm, fuzzy times when we all thought windows xp was going to just run out of calendar and banks were going to fall to their knees with the millennial date change. Ahh the memories.
Today I did the most adult thing I’ve ever done. I told someone how I actually felt about a situation in a calm grown up manner. I feel kind of proud.
There’s this odd moment when I realize it’s national coming out day and I’ve never been more repressed over my own homosexuality. This comes about as I’ve been invited to a wedding and when I’m asked if I have a +1 and of course I don’t. In this last year being out I really haven’t met anyone, don’t have any close friends to go out with in the 30 mile radius around me. I do have some great gay friends in Indy but all our lives keep us busy to a point where we can’t really see each other a lot.
Do I want a guy in my life and all of that? Um…yeah of course I do but it feels like my life is my job at the moment. I do really like this job I’ve got now so putting more of my time into learning all I can hasn’t bothered me, but I do wish I had more outside of all of it. I miss out and crazy gay Matt. It’s just extremely hard to balance all these lives without something falling to the side. I just don’t want that something being what makes me feel most like me.